My motivation to exercise.

July 7th, 2010

Exercise has been a part of my life for as long as I can remember. Even still it can be a struggle for me to get out and exercise sometimes. For example, when my husband and I go for our Tuesday morning run on the beach, my process is always the same. We get down to the water’s edge, Rich is ready to run pier to pier and I try to talk him into skipping the run and going for coffee. “Let’s just go for a fresh croissant at Le Pain” or “let’s just have a little sleep in the sand.” He patiently waits, often laughing, for me to get through my process and get on with the run. Ultimately what motivates me to run or swim or get to the gym is knowing that after a working all day at 3:00 all four kids are going to come home, they will have all sorts of needs to be met, there are groceries to buy, dinner to plan, dinner to cook for six, articles due the next day……and life just gets fuller and fuller.

As if by magic, when I exercise my experience with the ”fullness” of our life is entirely different than if I don’t exercise. The difference between the two experiences is night and day.  When I exercise I feel better, I am more creative, I flow easier, I have the energy to face it all, I am more productive, I am far less reactive with Rich, and the roast chicken dinner turns out. It’s magical.

So next time when you are at war with yourself in regards to exercise or other forms of self care, think about what lies ahead and what kind of day or night you wish to create. Perhaps that will help to motivate you into those running shoes or workout gear. Best of luck!

Carrie

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Restless Leg Syndrome (not rated PG)

June 4th, 2010

I can’t take it anymore. I can’t bear to hear of one more woman suffering from restless leg syndrome and stay silent. I’m haunted by the countless nightmare stories of how these victims try all kinds of drugs and techniques and nothing seems to help. Night after night they suffer.

Can we please just say it! Can we please just go there! The aid for restless leg syndrome is to have an O. Not O the magazine. Not O the show. Not Overstock, O’Neill or O’Reilly either…. Ooooohhh, an O! That’s right.

Enough suffering already! Help yourself, for god sake. Or have your spouse or partner help you.  Be selfish about it.  I recommend deep full body breathing to facilitate the best release. Repeat if necessary! Seriously indulge cuz who wants one more night of jumpy legs?!

My husband always says, the body has everything it needs to heal itself.  We just need to access all the good stuff nature has provided. (Trust me there is an “O” in OMG for a good reason).

Sleep well,

Carrie

 

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Sex and the City 2

May 31st, 2010

Photo by Warner Bros

I saw Sex and the City 2 last night. It was really fun, hilarious, over the top, and crude in parts (in particular in Samantha’s private parts). I was thinking afterwards why I love this movie, why I loved the TV series, why I don’t mind the over the top fashion, the vulgarity, the superficiality. What keeps me a fan is the friendship the four characters share.

Even though Miranda wasn’t fun for two years, Charlotte’s lying to herself about motherhood,  Samantha has insatiable obsessions with men and  face cream, and even though Carrie lost and found herself in the wrong relationship, no matter what these four go through the other three stand by.  Sometimes with rolling eyes or dismay, but they don’t seem to go far other than being irritated in the moment.

The movie in all its Hollywood glory got me thinking about the themes that mirror friendship. For me, what makes the difference between good companionship and life changing friendship is this: 

When she loses her way, no matter what’s happening in your day, you’ll keep a very close eye on her. When you’re buried under the rubble she makes sure to hold onto your hand until you dig yourself out. It’s the absence of ”I am so bothered by your current state of crazy that I am stepping away.”  There is no switching of the heart because at times her life looks under dressed.  Looking at her is like looking in the mirror – she won’t lie to make you feel better. But she will remove the blind fold and point you in the better direction.  She’s the one person on the planet you know you can call when you spend your life savings flying from another country to date a man in New York City to find out he’s a player. And then she’s there when you do it all over again. In the moments when life turns you on your head and you can’t see the forest for the trees, she’s the caring voice in the middle of the very dark night.  It’s the many cups of tea when you talk about everything and absolutely nothing but mostly it’s the comfort of being real.

No matter what level of success we create, no matter how far or close we dance with our truth, no matter how deeply we love, and no matter how much our lives are touched by glory, we will always need ”the girls” or a girlfriend to color our lives toward a brighter shade of lovely.

When that day comes when we need that special kind of friend, let’s hope we’ve been one along the way.

Carrie

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The Gentle Barn.

May 26th, 2010

I just learned about The Gentle Barn. I love their beautiful mission. I hope to take our kids out there very soon. As posted on The Gentle Barn’s website: 

“The Gentle Barn Foundation is a non-profit organization that teaches people kindness and compassion to animals, each other and the planet.  We do this by bringing people together with our 100 rescued farm animals.  Through interaction with the animals, The Gentle Barn teaches people tolerance, courage, strength, trust, leadership skills, and empathy.  Our violence prevention program is host to boy’s homes, foster homes, inner-city youth, special needs facilities, scout troops, local schools, and is now open to you.  

The Gentle Barn is located on a six-acre ranch in Santa Clarita, CA, and is home to horses, cows, pigs, sheep, goats, chickens, turkeys, llamas, dogs, cats, and a donkey. All of the animals have been rescued from abuse and have amazing stories.   

Addison was forced to pull heavy things. He was beaten when he refused. He was finally confiscated from that man and brought to the Gentle Barn where he was taught to trust and have fun. His favorite thing is to have his head and ears rubbed.

The Gentle Barn decided to open its doors to you and your family to experience the wonders of interacting with the animals for yourself.  Going to The Gentle Barn opens up a whole new world of healing, fun, and learning.  It is a world of open spaces, beauty, and color.  It is a world of nature and of connections with all living beings.”

Check out The Gentle Barn website or better yet pack up all the kids, make a picnic lunch and take a day trip to Santa Clarita.

 

 

Carrie 

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Donuts for Doug.

May 24th, 2010

Yesterday we had friends over for brunch. I made homemade donuts for dessert. We dipped the bite sized bliss into chocolate ganache, toasted almonds and raspberry puree. For me it was heaven; the donuts, the dark coffee and chatting with friends while the little ones ran in and out from under the canopy of the elm tree -  its long branches reaching down to the ground like a grandfather’s loving and protective arms.

I realized I could be quite content making donuts for my friends every day, especially Doug. He seemed to love them. What could possibly be wrong with doing what we love each day even if it’s a simple and small act of making donuts? What could possibly go wrong with dedicating your day to joy?

Making donuts for Doug doesn’t solve world hunger nor does it make a massive contribution to mankind. But in a microcosmic way, doing what you love everyday for the sake of nothing more than the joy and the creative endevor, tips our lives towards the light. And that seemingly small personal adjustment does impact the collective; shinier, happier people out on the road of life.

Furthermore, isn’t it when we dwell here – I’m in my blissful donut making state of mind – that the other pieces of life’s puzzle such as financial stability and success sort themselves out?  Don’t those larger pieces come together as a natural consequence of devoting your day to doing what you love?

Carrie

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There’s got to be a motor around here somewhere!

May 21st, 2010

I’ve been thinking about the times when we feel so boxed in, or buried, or when we are trying to stop the Titanic from sinking. How do we turn our ship around?

When I look back at other times when I felt this way, I realize that there was always a “motor for the moment.” Something that rebooted my energy, or provided that needed spark or that realigned me. I’m thinking that necessary motor we can fire up can always be found somewhere in the heap of our lives. I think it’s a matter of digging deeper into the heap or looking in spaces perhaps you’ve ignored. That burst of renewed optimism or energy might come from talking to someone new about your situation. Or doing something totally different from what you’ve been doing. It simply might come from a coffee and a heart to heart with a really wonderful unpolluted friend. It might come from dropping everything and going surfing or to the bakery for some honest reflection and apple pie.

If we believe our life is supported and resourced perfectly, and if we look for it, we will discover the motor for the moment.

Carrie

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And so she pedals on.

May 19th, 2010

Being in a relationship is like riding a bicycle built for two. To get anywhere you have to first figure out how to balance the thing together. Pedal in unison. Be each other’s eyes and ears. Collaborate on the go. Deal with the unexpected and minimize collisions. When you do fall off, you try to cushion the blow for your fellow rider. Tend to injuries and help each other get back on.

There is a woman whose husband is dying yet every day they get on their bicycle built for two. With her in the front, they journey along. When he tires, when he needs to stop pedalling and close his eyes for awhile, she pedals on. She pedals them on through bustling city streets out into the quiet of the countryside. She pedals on through an unrelenting fatigue as she faces the army of his illness.   As he sleeps, she pedals them deeper into the comforting country air that gently lifts his hair. She pedals on through tears, passing fields of memories and wonderings of what will come. She pedals on away from the impending sense of aloneness that follows her around. She pedals on knowing that very soon he will drift away… She pedals because her boundless love for this man compels her to go on.  

If you happen to see her or know her, or you are her, please salute her.

Carrie

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My Remedy for Homesickness.

May 18th, 2010

My mom lives 1038 miles away on an island in British Columbia Canada. Friday mornings at 10am we have tea and talk over Skye. So at 9:50am I can envision exactly what my mom is doing. She’s in her kitchen making her tea. I’m doing the same in my kitchen in southern California. At 9:55 I can see her headed to her office upstairs, tea cup in hand. As if by magic the geographical gap between us closes.  At other times, I place my computer on my kitchen countertop and Skye with my niece and nephew while I make  dinner. As they chat away about life, I feel like we are almost together in my home. 

For this home grown gal, time with my family is everything. Now that we live in different countries, all I can say is thank God for Skype!

Carrie

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Peace shares space with pain.

May 14th, 2010

There are simply no words in the human language to describe the feeling when one moment there is a life that contributes so immensely and immeasurable to the definition of your world and then the very next moment that life is over. Death isn’t designed to give us time, to prepare us. Life doesn’t teach us how to live without someone we love.  We spend our lives creating attachments, loving connections, and interweavings with others. Then death thunders in filling every corner. In a single heartbeat, dissolving what you’ve known to be true. Leaving you in anguish. Alienating you in a unrecognizable world.

Hallmark says  ”but you’ll always have your memories deary.” I say  memories are for our minds. What about our heart and soul? How do they live on?

As my mind threatens to break my soul for it cannot accept nor comprehend the separation, something else begins to appear. To my surprise, standing quietly at the edge of  the horror,  patiently waiting for the anguish to be hushed if only momentarily, moving gently as not to intrude, an absolute sense of peace sits down next to the anguish. And of course my pragmatic mind is all over this stranger. Interrupting its exquisite song like halting a symphony mid crescendo. Yet the undeniable sense of this peace is too powerful.  The absoluteness of its exsistence makes it impossible for my mind to argue against it. So I let it in, for the moment. I choose to believe in it. And the comfort is divine.

For me, after a loved one dies, the peace doesn’t come and stay indefinitely.  However, it does share space in my life with the pain. 

Carrie

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Confidence and Lee DeWyze

May 13th, 2010

I’ve been watching American Idol with my family. My favorite is Lee DeWyze. For most of the season he has consistently heard from the judges that he is amazing but lacking confidence. Lee you’re brilliant but you really need to get some stage swagger. Lee your lack of confidence really shows.  The poor guy. I feel for him. He looks bewildered when the judges give him this kind of feedback. I understand why. Where is he supposed to go and get this elusive thing called confidence? What can he do and do it fast before next week’s performance!

Where does confidence come from? Practice. Experience. Working super hard. I think so. Though I’m not really sure that’s all. For me, I think confidence also comes from the relationships I have with certain people. Somehow feeling  known and being truly understood by others makes me a little less fearful in my endeavors. Somehow having that home base person or sense of shelter to venture from and return to makes it all a little more bearable, and me a little more confident. I wonder if Lee just  maybe needs the experience of coming to know the truth about himself through the unpolluted eyes of a true  friend. Maybe it really does “take two to know one.”

Carrie

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